Saturn's Return

To know my heart and my soul.. having such a strong mental connection within myself but also realizing that with change comes death and within that lives a tale to tell of a stranger that feels alone desperately seeking validation, all while vanishing away in bottles of polluted elixirs and stung by the painfully realization that life hasn’t been what he or they expected. A journey of 27 years comes and he thinks, here’s the chance of a life time to start fresh… 

But what’s a fresh start when there’s a long hallway of trapped doors, dismantled hope and distressing habits for him to cope? He thinks to himself and says aloud, “What have I done in the last 27 years that makes me feel accomplished? Have I done anything important? Or better yet, Am I happy?” … And he stands there blank with no answer. And the crippling depression sinks back in. He’s such a huge dreamer, with no one to ever see his dreams. He’s never had a lover and struggles to make friends. His most important achievements are overshadowed by the darkness. His head drifts preparing for his unforeseen entrance into the 27 club but it’s just Saturn’s return.. 

He is me.